The baggage

The happy life we meant to have! 

happy is the new black

No feel no emotions other than happiness

Hello humans,

those are some examples that society wants us to be.

Human beings are getting better to express their feelings and mental problems. I am one of them. what’s my baggage?

what’s my baggage?

The need to achieve the best and pack as much as I can to my schedule and I want to “succeed” in life.

you might say it’s healthy to have those goals! but not when you can’t sleep at night because you feel you failed at what you do. You might say I am a workaholic because when I am not working I am on the next project, cleaning, writing, reading, going out.

All those things there are not bad, but I have been in a burnt out phase and my anxiety has peaked levels. The only way I used to manage all of this was by binge eating. I can’t do that anymore because I am being “good” with food and my body so my credit card suffers from it. Shopping doesn’t fill the wholeness and the overwhelming feeling that I have everyday.

So what do I do?

So what do you do?(if you are having this problem or worse)

For me, I take a step back cut the yuckiness out of my life, the baggage of the society, that wants us perfect beings. I am not perfect neither I want to be! I just want to succeed in life!

I feel already successful when I cut the bullshit of wanting more with my life.

I might have a degree and I might be a struggling artist that works as a barista to get by, but I couldn’t be happier because all the beautiful human beings surrounding my life.

I still try to juggle the balance of the life I want to have and the life my parents want me to have. At the end of the day, I want to be happy, sad, angry, silly, and not be judged by it because is not appropriate for my age. Who gives a shit! You are living your life not the person that’s telling you that you are not doing this accordingly by the book.

 

So people cut the garbage out of your life or don’t! I learned how to live with it but now I am learning to live without it.

 

 

 

Favorite words!

Do you have favorite words? 

Like you hear them or try to use them all the time? 

I know I do ! Call me crazy but some words is just how you pronounce them or them meaning! 

So here is my all time favorite words 

1. B E A U TIFUL

2. Absolutely 

3. Scrumptious 

4. Galore 

5. Skedadle 

What your favourite words? Leave them at the comments bellow.

Stay awesome humans 

Mr. Sparkles

Hi Y’all,

 

I decided that will make up an alter ego. I choose my alter ego be Mr. Sparkles because Mr. Sparkle has no self-control and no shame and can say whatever he wants.

MR. Sparkles today is saying to everybody, get a little of not to give a f*ck sparkle dust because I will continue being awesome.

Relaxation? ??

What does it take to relax?

Go out of town? 

Not looking at emails? 

Not worring about projects ?

Put on the airplane mode? 

Meditate?

For me is going away and seeing my family… but always something happens and I get disturbed of my peace time!!! People smell that I need a time off and they do anything in their hand to stop it…

I feel I am a workaholic but I need to let go and stop doing things for people … my parter says gp out do sth get your mind of it! I simply can’t!  I will force myself to do it though cause I need some time out! 
What do you do for a time out? And if someone ruins it for you how do you seek it further?

Broken Brain?

I saved a praying mantis from my cat today and while I was doing that I had a thought why my brain feel so broken?

 

Meaning why am I so stressed and sad all the time? I have good things happening in my life, but every small and thing turn into a big drama day of crying for me.

Lately, I feel everyone hates me, and they want to destroy me. I know it is not true, but my head is messing up with me.

Honestly, I need a time-out.Time out from life, work, relationships, friendships I want to float into void and be surrounded by white light. Evey time I plan to do that something pulls me back to reality. All I need is 3 days away from every possible situation to just let the worries float out.

A Hairdresser and a Psychologist

Hi everybody,

 

Before you start reading, I would like to say this is my theory you might feel different, but this is how I view it.

 

I always find difficult to trust psychologists and hairdressers. They hold so much power.

The psychologists hold power to help you heal from within, and the hairdresser helps you improve from the outside. I mean imagine if you had the worst scenario in both situations you end crazier than before with bad hair to top it up. You can’t hide either of them.

Imagine if you had a good hairdresser and a psychologist then you shine like a diamond even if you not there yet mentally.

 

So I am here to warn you to choose wisely because with many options comes great responsibility for yourself.

Stay awesome people.

 

Ps. I had so many bad haircuts in my life that now when I find a good hairdresser I treat her like a queen they are a rare species.

The road to…

Hi everyone, 

Imagine  your life as a million of paths and strings and every step you make you create new path and you cut one string. Now you don’t know where you going because you are blind, but every step you make you think you making he right decision. 

Isn’t scary to be walking blind? And thinking you are making the right step to your happiness?  

I always think what about the other paths? Or how do I know that the step I am making it’s not predestined and I am just doing it thinking it’s free will. 

I mean there are millions of other parallel universes that I might be dead, rich, or famous. 

All I know I won’t stop trying to live the life I think it’s best for me. Even if it is hard. I will be proud of it in the end of the day. 

The art of stress eating and self-guilt

Hello beautiful people,

 

I bet you missed me. I tell you a secret I missed myself as well. I have been so busy lately that I forgot how to breathe or think straight.

So Let’s get to the post, shall we?

 

In order to eat badly make sure you are working 40 hours per week. Also, you are slumming yourself with full-time course work( FYI I started a new course called mental health and addictions.) plus volunteering and at the same time juggling a solo exhibition.

Now, of course, you are proud what you have accomplished so far, but let me tell you when the time comes and you have a schedule like that you just want to eat trash and feel guilty of not having time for yourself. After all that guilt, you eat some more trash and then wished you had time to go see your family, but instead of that you just fall into the abyss of freaking out and seeking advice from your awesome workmates.

 

Because they are so awesome they gave you half a day off and now you have the energy to fill those gaps of studying and more art making.

When you think is over do not worry, do it on repeat.

 

Yours Faithfully,

eating badly.

 

Dragons and Mermaids

Hello everybody,

I have to say wouldn;t be great if dragons and mermaids existed?

I think so! Going through history there is a lot of reference on dragons and mermaids in many parts of the world and they are pretty much consistent!

 

Now that is not proof that they exist, but it could be true!

 

Probably not but hope dies las. I wish I lived in a world where such wonderful creatures existed and then I could be one!

 

Happy new years guys (a little late) let’s have a mythical 2017.

 

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