I saved a praying mantis from my cat today and while I was doing that I had a thought why my brain feel so broken?
Meaning why am I so stressed and sad all the time? I have good things happening in my life, but every small and thing turn into a big drama day of crying for me.
Lately, I feel everyone hates me, and they want to destroy me. I know it is not true, but my head is messing up with me.
Honestly, I need a time-out.Time out from life, work, relationships, friendships I want to float into void and be surrounded by white light. Evey time I plan to do that something pulls me back to reality. All I need is 3 days away from every possible situation to just let the worries float out.
Before you start reading, I would like to say this is my theory you might feel different, but this is how I view it.
I always find difficult to trust psychologists and hairdressers. They hold so much power.
The psychologists hold power to help you heal from within, and the hairdresser helps you improve from the outside. I mean imagine if you had the worst scenario in both situations you end crazier than before with bad hair to top it up. You can’t hide either of them.
Imagine if you had a good hairdresser and a psychologist then you shine like a diamond even if you not there yet mentally.
So I am here to warn you to choose wisely because with many options comes great responsibility for yourself.
Stay awesome people.
Ps. I had so many bad haircuts in my life that now when I find a good hairdresser I treat her like a queen they are a rare species.
Imagine your life as a million of paths and strings and every step you make you create new path and you cut one string. Now you don’t know where you going because you are blind, but every step you make you think you making he right decision.
Isn’t scary to be walking blind? And thinking you are making the right step to your happiness?
I always think what about the other paths? Or how do I know that the step I am making it’s not predestined and I am just doing it thinking it’s free will.
I mean there are millions of other parallel universes that I might be dead, rich, or famous.
All I know I won’t stop trying to live the life I think it’s best for me. Even if it is hard. I will be proud of it in the end of the day.
Hello beautiful people,
I bet you missed me. I tell you a secret I missed myself as well. I have been so busy lately that I forgot how to breathe or think straight.
So Let’s get to the post, shall we?
In order to eat badly make sure you are working 40 hours per week. Also, you are slumming yourself with full-time course work( FYI I started a new course called mental health and addictions.) plus volunteering and at the same time juggling a solo exhibition.
Now, of course, you are proud what you have accomplished so far, but let me tell you when the time comes and you have a schedule like that you just want to eat trash and feel guilty of not having time for yourself. After all that guilt, you eat some more trash and then wished you had time to go see your family, but instead of that you just fall into the abyss of freaking out and seeking advice from your awesome workmates.
Because they are so awesome they gave you half a day off and now you have the energy to fill those gaps of studying and more art making.
When you think is over do not worry, do it on repeat.
I have to say wouldn;t be great if dragons and mermaids existed?
I think so! Going through history there is a lot of reference on dragons and mermaids in many parts of the world and they are pretty much consistent!
Now that is not proof that they exist, but it could be true!
Probably not but hope dies las. I wish I lived in a world where such wonderful creatures existed and then I could be one!
Happy new years guys (a little late) let’s have a mythical 2017.
Also, I started another blog 🙂 with just book reviews you can follow me there and support my work.
I am a stranger to this blog I know this much! 😛 I haven’t been here a lot, but I plan to.
So, my resolution for 2017 is:
TO BE AWESOME 🙂
Have I? I am afraid not. No matter how much I hated some of my bosses I always felt sorry for them and stayed there. Saying that though I have left work always on good terms. I hate fighting and I leave in a small town and good manners help otherwise bad rumors might come and I cannot afford mistakes.
- The Flash
If you haven’t seen this I will say to you Come on! Really? Really? Not cool. The flash is a fluffy marshmallow that makes you day better with the geeky jokes and a time paradox that will scramble your mind.
2. Once upon a time
I have spent way too much watching this show and invested a lot of time and I will get upset If something bad happens to the show.
3. New Girl
I believe it is better than friends, yes I said it BETTER!!!! Funny modern it makes you relate to it.
Who doesn’t like medical series with a sprinkle of asshole in them; Funny, clever and I get to learn about medical stuff that explains it and goes through a thinking process.
5. Super Girl
I believe it’s like flash in a female figure. I like to see a female heroine for once that kick butts.
I get excited when writing comes in my way, but I have spread myself too thin I am afraid and it is eating my energy. Writing for Nablopomo and joining for NaNoWriMo and writing for my blog trying to do art and writing for other blogs, doing my art meanwhile looking for a job and renovating a house. AH! Breath in breath out. So yes I am busy but good busy.
I would like to say more writing will come. I am very very tired and brain drained and have no inspiration. So I will give myself time to refresh and find more things to write about. SO yeah! I will be coming back soon like tomorrow probably.