Insanity letters to myself -Letter 2, you dropped something

Dear me,

I thought this was a funny meme, because I am going through this everyday and it doesn’t have to be shark week time.

I would like to say that women are so strong pulling the emotion together when we are out there in the world and trying to prove to everybody that everything is fine and we don’t need any help. But behind closed doors we can drop a spoon lets say and ball our eyes out.

For one today , I was super productive and around an hour ago I went to make some coffee for me and after I finished dI went to put the machine away and as I was putting down were it belongs I dropped it with full tank of water. I splashed water all over the wall and carpet with some speckles of coffee. I lost it! I cried like a baby while was trying to clean the floor and wall before it had any damage.

Often, people call women insane for crying too easily but in all reality we bottle so much and then boom the crying gates are open. I often hear the world crazy, too emotional just suck it up and move on. I don’t want to move on.

I WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY FEELINGS. Yes, I know I am yelling , but I do want to say that it’s ok not feel good all the time and please take time to cry because without those feeling you probably be a psychopath or a sociopath ready to conquer the world.

So cry, let’s cry together because life is sad sometimes and crying for that dropped spoon gets you through the day, month , year fighting to get want you want(pregnancy, promotion saving that money for a big travel whatever it is ) then do it.

Stay strong together, cry together, laugh together with my stupid speeches.

That Gut Feeling

I am trying to design something for a tote bag, but my gut feeling doesn’t like it one of them. I know that design will sell more than the other one, but if it doesn’t speak to me and doesn’t represent me why should I follow “what the audience wants” for money?

I prefer to do what I want and something that the audience will want, but with my say and design. And not someone’s else’s design.

What are you passionate about?

Such a hard question. Everyone has been asking me what I am going to to do now that I finished art school; and the only answer is work.

Where ? like a design job? or do your own business?

As much as I like this miracle to happen( by saying miracle, I mean quit my job and focus on my business) I actually want to work. I have a million plus in my head, but I am stressing out that I can’t full fill them because I actually don’t have time.

Am I passionate about something?

Yes, I am passionate about life, my life. It might be boring to some, but I choose to lead it that way.

Passion is something that is built on. I feel reward is passion. That reward can be from work, from family, from your blog, anything that you have feelings for.

Passion is a feeling.

SO no I am not boring, yes I do have plans in my life and no I am not in a hurry I am only 23.