Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.
Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.
I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.
Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.
I thought this was a funny meme, because I am going through this everyday and it doesn’t have to be shark week time.
I would like to say that women are so strong pulling the emotion together when we are out there in the world and trying to prove to everybody that everything is fine and we don’t need any help. But behind closed doors we can drop a spoon lets say and ball our eyes out.
For one today , I was super productive and around an hour ago I went to make some coffee for me and after I finished dI went to put the machine away and as I was putting down were it belongs I dropped it with full tank of water. I splashed water all over the wall and carpet with some speckles of coffee. I lost it! I cried like a baby while was trying to clean the floor and wall before it had any damage.
Often, people call women insane for crying too easily but in all reality we bottle so much and then boom the crying gates are open. I often hear the world crazy, too emotional just suck it up and move on. I don’t want to move on.
I WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE MY FEELINGS. Yes, I know I am yelling , but I do want to say that it’s ok not feel good all the time and please take time to cry because without those feeling you probably be a psychopath or a sociopath ready to conquer the world.
So cry, let’s cry together because life is sad sometimes and crying for that dropped spoon gets you through the day, month , year fighting to get want you want(pregnancy, promotion saving that money for a big travel whatever it is ) then do it.
Stay strong together, cry together, laugh together with my stupid speeches.
In this post you will find a way to take care of yourself!
Step 1:
Congratulations, you did it! You done the first step of taking care of yourself, by looking how too, rest assured there is nothing else to do. Kidding keep reading.
Step 2:
Find someone like me that has no clue either how to take care of herself so you can go all together in blind and figure it out.
Step 3:
If I haven’t lost you as a reader then , hello my friend we reached into one of the most important steps. Master the face of zero fucks. Once you master the face your brain will catch up with the idea sooner or later and then you will give zero fucks. Literally about anything. Trust me, it is important. I found that by not caring about other people liberates you for the social structure to please assholes!
Step 4:
Now that the burden of pleasing others is gone, you can move deeper into the level of self-care. Trust me, I have no idea what I am talking to about but do it, it will work. Alright step 4 make sure you have schedule or perseverance. Why? Because sometimes taking care of yourself doesn’t come easily so you need to make an appointment with yourself or tell yourself to fuck off when your mind tries to convince you to hide under the table.
Step 5:
Self care doesn’t only consist scheduling the time but actually doing the nitty gritty work of feeling like shit and coming through it! I know so basic but let me tell you taking vitamins and eating salads wont change the feeling you got in your head. Self care comes from the mind, heart and body. So, going for walks in nature, calling your friends for support, yelling at the world yes I have a problem and it’s ok because really, it is ok.
Step 6:
Now you admitted to yourself that you are not ok and you need to do something about it. you read this ridiculous post, involved your friends and family, joined the gym start eating healthy all the above of self care. You just need one thing to succeed. Dedication. Everyday you think you can’t do it. look yourself in the mirror and say you are a magnificent beast and you can do this by only keeping at it.
I know this post is more humour than anything else but I would like to say that I am doing the things and I said there and I am succeeding in my goals, slowly but I am doing it for me.
Haven’t been long since I wrote here which is amazing because I am keeping the promise to myself of keep writing. Anyway I wanted o make fun of myself and the excuses I keep telling myself also I wanted to be a little inspirational at the same time. So I hope this post will be as awesome as it is in my head.
You know you just wake up some days and you feel so fat, and the first thing you say to yourself is I am so bloated, it must be the beans on the pizza I ate last night! Like ya, it’s the legumes, not the 2 pizzas you consumed last night making you feel guilty and fat.
Honestly I didn’t eat the two pizzas but I have done in the past. I did eat though nachos with beans and it is really hard when you call yourself fat because you are a size 12 because I know deep down that I am not fat ( maybe a little) but my head is not happy.
I came to realize that all the excuses that I was keep saying to myself in these 6 years I gained 20kg. That’s a lot, and my goal for the next 12 weeks is not to lose kilos because that is not important but to get fit and start loving my body as is again.
Us women and men we need to start learning how to love ourselves first before we try to be thin, fat, fit and have emotions. I know it is hard to try and fit in society and make excuses how you look today. Like yeah I am bloated and fat at the same time what does it matter; I am working on my problems one at a time.
So, I hope you follow my journey of me complaining and trying my best to change my lifestyle. You can join as well and we can motivate each other.
What is your experience with body issues would love to know!
I am lost in the universe of being an adult and saving money to buy a house because that’s the responsible thing to do.
You see I do believe in choices we make and what path we are heading; I chose to get married and try to buy a house and in the future starting a family. I consider myself lucky enough to have found my soul mate that makes want to settle down. I chose this life no one forces me to do all those things.
Have you ever thought how all the choices we make impact our life’s so much that we see the results many months later or even years. The choice that I made or should I say my mum made to send to New Zealand for a better life and a better relationship with my father changed the course of the rest of my life. I know it sounds dramatic , but it is true I am a completely different person 6 years later and I love my mum so much for doing this for me because it made an awesome girl out of me. I am strong independent, found the love of my life experienced things I would never have in Greece and above all it made me love life more than ever. I am surround by amazing people and I have an amazing job that full fills me and nailing my goals in life. Well, most of them anyway. I am not fit and my bones hurts every-time I walk because I am not taking care of myself as much I should, but it is a choice that I made and I am about to change for me.
The question is did you make a choice that impact your life that much?
PS. It hasn’t been an easy journey, also, I hope my positivity brings some light to some and help them make a better choice for them.
Also Also I am making the choice to get back to my other loves like writing here and taking care of me.
well, that’s a good question. There are two scenarios:
Number one:
You admit defeat and you and die in a corner
or Number two:
You look up in the sky, with all your power lift both of your hands with the middle finger standing up, and scream from at top of your lungs FUCK YOU TOO UNIVERSE.
Because defeat is not in your dictionary and you will Capre fucking diem every day.
This is what I tell myself when shit things happen.
Unpredictable Life 