Insanity letter to me -insanity?

Hello humans,

Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.

Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.

I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.

Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.

Favorite words!

Do you have favorite words? 

Like you hear them or try to use them all the time? 

I know I do ! Call me crazy but some words is just how you pronounce them or them meaning! 

So here is my all time favorite words 

1. B E A U TIFUL

2. Absolutely 

3. Scrumptious 

4. Galore 

5. Skedadle 

What your favourite words? Leave them at the comments bellow.

Stay awesome humans 

The road to…

Hi everyone, 

Imagine  your life as a million of paths and strings and every step you make you create new path and you cut one string. Now you don’t know where you going because you are blind, but every step you make you think you making he right decision. 

Isn’t scary to be walking blind? And thinking you are making the right step to your happiness?  

I always think what about the other paths? Or how do I know that the step I am making it’s not predestined and I am just doing it thinking it’s free will. 

I mean there are millions of other parallel universes that I might be dead, rich, or famous. 

All I know I won’t stop trying to live the life I think it’s best for me. Even if it is hard. I will be proud of it in the end of the day. 

When I grow up!

I always say let’s listen to the grown up they might know a little bit about life! 

They response is you are a grown up! 

The answer I give is I am not grown up grown up yet! I haven’t got kids! 

Is this the breaking point of being an actual grown up? Or is one point in your life that you say I need to stop fucking around and I need to do something all grown up do; know what I am supposed to do in life and earn a lot of money? 

Here is the thing though I don’t really care about money. I just want an easy going life that I am able to do things without being judged and being expected that I was meant to do more with my life.

So I choose not to be a grown up! I am 24 and I am aloud to figure things out even if they don’t look good on my CV. 

I am back

I have been away 

Sorry for that

It’s time to fall back

With a loud bang
Ps. Hey guys been traveling around Europe so it’s hard to post thing on the blog, but now that I am coming to the end I will be posting some stuff more often! Brace yourselfs I am back! 

From day to Day

In response to The Poetry of List-Making

From the day to day

I remind myself

live

breath

smile

sleep

From day to day

don’t hide under the table

From day to day

remind you that humans are annoying

From day to day

learn to let go

Artist

Another wastful day

  Rhyming for life

Trying to swim 

In the sea of fears

Saying what we feel

Trying  to be alive again 

When you go down!

Hi everybody

Having fun with your lives? 

I do! I had so much fun yesterday that I dance and I drunk 2.5 long Island ice teas. 

 what happened you may ask after I went home?

Well, 

My mother took me home because I was unable to drive and as soon as I lie down the whole room was spinning. 

I did the mistake of drinking a lot of water. What happened after drinking the water ?

I don’t know, maybe I got up to vomit and I threw up slipped on the vomit, crowl to the bathroom to continue vomiting. 

My boyfriend was cleaning and trying to make me stop drinking water.

I say this story because now that I think of it, it’s sad and funny at the same time!! It never happens to me before, but hey there is always a first time😂. 

The What If Theory

I often find myself saying “what if I was going too fast, I could have been in an accident”  or “What if I walked there I could have been the one that got mugged”.

Anyway I say a lot What if’s and I stopped and thought; bloody hell I am a lucky gal cause, What if I didn’t write this post because bad things had happened to me?

 

On the bottom line, my message I am trying to say is: stop being reckless because is not worth risking others peoples life.

So What if we were all good people and cared for everybody?

Who knows? maybe in a parallel universe, they don’t have what ifs!

Side note: I have exciting news I have been asked to write for another blog as well so I have been busy! My reviews of books and movies going to transfer on that blog you can follow me there as well.

My Profile there with my posts : Elektra Bakhshov 

Feast a poem of fear

In response to daily prompt Feast

 

Fear for life

Endlessly scared

Aloof

Stagnant feelings

True to death