The happy life we meant to have! happy is the new black No feel no emotions other than happiness
those are some examples that society wants us to be.
Human beings are getting better to express their feelings and mental problems. I am one of them. what’s my baggage?
what’s my baggage?
The need to achieve the best and pack as much as I can to my schedule and I want to “succeed” in life.
you might say it’s healthy to have those goals! but not when you can’t sleep at night because you feel you failed at what you do. You might say I am a workaholic because when I am not working I am on the next project, cleaning, writing, reading, going out.
All those things there are not bad, but I have been in a burnt out phase and my anxiety has peaked levels. The only way I used to manage all of this was by binge eating. I can’t do that anymore because I am being “good” with food and my body so my credit card suffers from it. Shopping doesn’t fill the wholeness and the overwhelming feeling that I have everyday.
So what do I do?
So what do you do?(if you are having this problem or worse)
For me, I take a step back cut the yuckiness out of my life, the baggage of the society, that wants us perfect beings. I am not perfect neither I want to be! I just want to succeed in life!
I feel already successful when I cut the bullshit of wanting more with my life.
I might have a degree and I might be a struggling artist that works as a barista to get by, but I couldn’t be happier because all the beautiful human beings surrounding my life.
I still try to juggle the balance of the life I want to have and the life my parents want me to have. At the end of the day, I want to be happy, sad, angry, silly, and not be judged by it because is not appropriate for my age. Who gives a shit! You are living your life not the person that’s telling you that you are not doing this accordingly by the book.
So people cut the garbage out of your life or don’t! I learned how to live with it but now I am learning to live without it.