Insanity letter to me -insanity?

Hello humans,

Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.

Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.

I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.

Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.

Books and sequels!

Hello lifers,

I am here to bring up a serious matter books! You know when the book is good and you wanna finish it but at the same time not because it’s gonna end. Especially when the second book come in a few months. I mean come authors don’t do this to us. Us peasants want to read all of the series in one go. We know it is our mistake to read books that series haven’t finished yet , but still we gonna blame you that you are not releasing the books fast enough.

Am I being unreasonable? That would be Yes! Do I care? Nope!

Seriously though it is so rare for me now to read books that simply blow my mind and get my heart all beating fast. I don’t love cliffhanger but this book didn’t even finish in a big cliffhanger seriously I could have said meh don’t care , but the way it was written just broke my heart reading the last sentence.

I need an army of angry readers to come and comfort me in the same problem! I have big book hang over can’t decide if I want to read it again or push through with more books.

HELP!

Why I love New Zealand(poem?)

New Zealand doesn’t have fancy coffee shops

or fancy restaurants

or fancy hotels

New Zealand have people that go out  walk and talk

Smiles flying around from grown-ups, kids, and animals

emotions that have the full spectrum.

New Zealand that accepts all body types and mental illness

because you New Zealand are cool as.

 

Hello, people of the world,

that was the lamest poem, I was going for a spoken poem I don’t think I did it.

Anyway, going back to Greece for a few months and in Japan, for my Honeymoon, I saw little to no emotions.

In the first situation, I noticed so many people were angry and is understandable about the situation is going on at the moment. People were trying to pick a fight with everybody, nobody was smiling, eveyone was grumpy. And In japan no emotion in their faces at all. Just kept to themselves and looking at their phones. It was quite sad really, because they looked so lonely.

I am not here to judge, but merely saying what I saw. After my trip I came to New Zealand my home now and I had a walk down the street, I saw people walking and smiling, looking at my face and smilling back, saying goodmorning and i saw a lady being misarable and it was ok because yussss finally some emotions out there. Why do we have to be those people that show no emotion? I don’t find that strong I find weak.

So let’s keep the emotion rolling.

I hope you liked my rant/motivation of emotion rolling.

the survival instict

you often ask yourself how the hell do people live like that? how do they survive?

when common logic is thrown out of the window you suddenly realize how dangerous is life.

being reckless is no fun! and certainly is no joke when you toying with someone else life. you wonder why people act the way they do? I know people suffer from their own problems but have the decency to be careful while you drive.

The past few days I saw so many people going against the law and being dangerous not only for themselves and others.

You wonder if these people survive base on the survival instinct alone?

I mean the only behavior can come close are animalistic behavior but even then animals are more civilized than some humans.

I feel shaken by peoples driving here because there is no law that they uphold and when those people go to a country that the law is enforced they get a shock and blame the people that they are sheep and don’t live a little!

How dare they! If I wanted a dateline rush I will do skydiving but I will not put myself and others in danger of reckless driving. Because truly that action is selfish.

 

Ok, Rant over! Let me know though your thoughts! love to hear them!

Let’s talk about Self-Care

Hello Humans,

let’s talk about self-care. I am no expert here about self-care nor I claim that I found the solution of peace of mind and calm soul. But I have a fair share of trying to find myself, care myself and such.

I have to say it very very very hard to take care of yourself because you sometimes forget what’s important and what’s not! The must’s of everyday life come into focus on the wants.

Fellow humans, I am sorry to say this but the wants are very important; it is the things we want, keep us sane.

So don’t neglect those wants over musts.

For me is an everyday struggle to do things that I want rather than must and sometimes I try to balance my wanting to do things without forcing myself to do them so.

A very jumbled post but here it is, my insight to self-care.

LESSON OF THE DAY: Do something that you want and take a step back from all the musts of your everyday life. Because taking a break or a step back is moving forward.

Till next time,

Stay sane humans.

When Life gives you Lemons!

Hello Humans,

 

it has been a while but I am struggling with stress and personal issues but I thought today I should talk about bad things that happen to us. Otherwise, the lemons that life gives.

I always said when life gives you lemons make lemonade because they are expensive.

I often think that what if my life had me different easier, didn’t take my chances what would happen?

 

I don’t know what would happen but I have an odd feeling that I would be unhappy, I mean right now I am not thrilled with anything just overwhelmed than anything else.  Yes, life has played some tricks on me but taking advantage of those tricks and going with the flow I learned a lot of lessons and met great people along the way!

I think I would prefer to make lemonade than continuously throwing the lemons because of thats just a waste.

Probably didn’t make sense what I just said… If you did understand then welcome to the club 🙂

Doing That thing we wanted

Hello Humans,

Do you remember last week you said to yourself I am going to go for a run today!

But you never went, because I don’t know you couldn’t be bothered to put your shoes on and instead you ate chips!

This was just an example but in many cases, it happens either is a run or to start a blog or whatever we desire.

Why do we sabotage ourselves?

I don’t know for you out there, but I am scared of failure. I always put it I can’t be bothered or I am too busy for this; I have this feeling though that I failed myself because I didn’t do it, obviously, I wanted to go for a run but my stupid brain was nah!

I need to learn to break the habit of just sitting back and doing nothing when I want to do something.

So 2018 I am coming with the determination of breaking the lazy brain habits 🙂

What about you? Would love to hear your experience!

 

 

Glorious Life-Goodbuy 2017 Hello 2018

Hello Humans,

 

I am back!

Will I be here often now that is 2018?

probably not who am I kidding life is getting busy moving forward and sweeping me on the way… I am having a sweet ride… 2017 has been a learning curve for me I got engaged, I learned to stick for myself and in the process, I got an awesome job and comes with an awesome boss and awesome workplace… Rare I know it, I got lucky…

2017 also taught me that taking a break it is ok because taking care of yourself and taking a step back actually saves you from burnouts and failures. Studies mental health and addiction I learned there that maybe is not something I wanna do right now and guess what it is ok!

2017 also gave me confidence and awesome people surrounded me and gave lessons that I will carry with me forever Shout out to me Gallery curator Megan that believes in my art and continues to teach basic stuff and sell my work 🙂 thank you so much…

To my partner that made sure my work was looking perfect and to my friends that stuck with me in difficult times and easy times. To my amazing family that helped me overcome difficulties and believed in me:).

To the new people that joined my life and my gang keeps growing and becoming awesome. I am filled with love and happiness… I know cheesy as hell my goodbye to 2017 it was a difficult year, with learning curves awesome people and happiness; no need to focus on negative it was small very very small.

I hope my 2018 is as great as my 2017 I am going to rock this year not with new years resolutions, but with my new year intentions. Because I intended to rock my world with glitter and the things I want in my life …

I hope your 2018 will be as awesome as I will aim mine to be!

See you next time unpredictable lifers.

 

Tattoo’s, anxiety and life

Hello humans,

I am always active for a while and then I disappear. Well, I am proudly here to announce that I am part of the tattooed gang!   Yay! I don’t know how I managed to get it but go through it because I got a hand poked one!

The experience was amazing. I am still thinking to myself how did I manage to actually do it! So proud of myself.  Here is a bad photo I took!

 

I never realised that my anxiety can affect my body so much! It is so hard to control it. I have managed to control it, in a way it doesn’t show to the world, but my body takes the punish. So it is time to start letting go and taking care of myself.

And life? I think she’s ok! I am we haven’t caught in a while with her for a coffee!

JOKES,

I am happy to say that the things are getting better and falling into place. For one thing, I just had my first author contact me and asked me to review their book! I am so proud of my hard work and finally someone liking it and asking me to review their book!

I am sure I will come inspired tomorrow with another post, but now this is it!

Mr.Sparkles is out! ( sparkles is a he yes even if I am a she)

 

 

Your Last Chapter

Hello Humans,

I found this, in one of the book groups, I am in. I thought to myself, would I?

I mean I would hope my life is awesome I am planning to be. If my life was epic I would want to read the end experience and say no way! If this is how I am going down then pat on the shoulder.

If though my life is going boring and not interesting I still want to know so I can re-write my stupid self for letting down my dreams and hopes.

Like HELLO, we live one life better make it count, the good and the bad. In fact, I want to be the writer of this book because I know the best way to go down!

Morbid? maybe but definitely not giving up.