Insanity letter to me -insanity?

Hello humans,

Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.

Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.

I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.

Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.

I am DIYing my second wedding! (to the same man)

Hello humans,

I am starting a new series on this blog were I take you with me organizing my second wedding with a tight budget!

Now a lot people will say you have experience and it’s your second one so you know what you are doing already, but no the first one was mostly organized for me. So this time it would be me doing all of the work. 

I hope I can inspire people with the process and have a awesome wedding for them too! 

Always if you have any suggestions or question feel free to comment ! Coming Soon with the first post about flowers!

When you are fat and make excuses…

Hello Humans,

How are you doing?

Haven’t been long since I wrote here which is amazing because I am keeping the promise to myself of keep writing. Anyway I wanted o make fun of myself and the excuses I keep telling myself also I wanted to be a little inspirational at the same time. So I hope this post will be as awesome as it is in my head. 

You know you just wake up some days and you feel so fat, and the first thing you say to yourself is I am so bloated, it must be the beans on the pizza I ate last night! Like ya, it’s the legumes, not the 2 pizzas you consumed last night making you feel guilty and fat. 

Honestly I didn’t eat the two pizzas but I have done in the past. I did eat though nachos with beans and it is really hard when you call yourself fat because you are a size 12 because I know deep down that I am not fat ( maybe a little) but my head is not happy. 

I came to realize that all the excuses that I was keep saying to myself in these 6 years I gained 20kg. That’s a lot, and my goal for the next 12 weeks is not to lose kilos because that is not important but to get fit and start loving my body as is again. 

Us women and men we need to start learning how to love ourselves first before we try to be thin, fat, fit and have emotions. I know it is hard to try and fit in society and make excuses how you look today. Like yeah I am bloated and fat at the same time what does it matter; I am working on my problems one at a time. 

So, I hope you follow my journey of me complaining and trying my best to change my lifestyle. You can join as well and we can motivate each other. 

What is your experience with body issues would love to know!

Choices we make

Hello Humans,

How you doing?

I am lost in the universe of being an adult and saving money to buy a house because that’s the responsible thing to do.

You see I do believe in choices we make and what path we are heading; I chose to get married and try to buy a house and in the future starting a family. I consider myself lucky enough to have found my soul mate that makes want to settle down. I chose this life no one forces me to do all those things. 

Have you ever thought how all the choices we make  impact our life’s so much that we see the results many months later or even years. The choice that I made or should I say my mum made to send to New Zealand for a better life and a better relationship with my father changed the course of the rest of my life. I know it sounds dramatic , but it is true I am a completely different person 6 years later and I love my mum so much for doing this for me because it made an awesome girl out of me. I am strong independent, found the love of my life experienced things I would never have in Greece and above all it made me love life more than ever. I am surround by amazing people and I have an amazing job that full fills me and nailing my goals in life. Well, most of them anyway. I am not fit and my bones hurts every-time I walk because I am not taking care of myself as much I should, but it is a choice that I made and I am about to change for me. 

The question is did you make a choice that impact your life that much?

PS. It hasn’t been an easy journey, also, I hope my positivity brings some light to some and help them make a better choice for them. 

Also Also I am making the choice to get back to my other loves like writing here and taking care of me.

Stay awesome Humans

Why I love New Zealand(poem?)

New Zealand doesn’t have fancy coffee shops

or fancy restaurants

or fancy hotels

New Zealand have people that go out  walk and talk

Smiles flying around from grown-ups, kids, and animals

emotions that have the full spectrum.

New Zealand that accepts all body types and mental illness

because you New Zealand are cool as.

 

Hello, people of the world,

that was the lamest poem, I was going for a spoken poem I don’t think I did it.

Anyway, going back to Greece for a few months and in Japan, for my Honeymoon, I saw little to no emotions.

In the first situation, I noticed so many people were angry and is understandable about the situation is going on at the moment. People were trying to pick a fight with everybody, nobody was smiling, eveyone was grumpy. And In japan no emotion in their faces at all. Just kept to themselves and looking at their phones. It was quite sad really, because they looked so lonely.

I am not here to judge, but merely saying what I saw. After my trip I came to New Zealand my home now and I had a walk down the street, I saw people walking and smiling, looking at my face and smilling back, saying goodmorning and i saw a lady being misarable and it was ok because yussss finally some emotions out there. Why do we have to be those people that show no emotion? I don’t find that strong I find weak.

So let’s keep the emotion rolling.

I hope you liked my rant/motivation of emotion rolling.

the survival instict

you often ask yourself how the hell do people live like that? how do they survive?

when common logic is thrown out of the window you suddenly realize how dangerous is life.

being reckless is no fun! and certainly is no joke when you toying with someone else life. you wonder why people act the way they do? I know people suffer from their own problems but have the decency to be careful while you drive.

The past few days I saw so many people going against the law and being dangerous not only for themselves and others.

You wonder if these people survive base on the survival instinct alone?

I mean the only behavior can come close are animalistic behavior but even then animals are more civilized than some humans.

I feel shaken by peoples driving here because there is no law that they uphold and when those people go to a country that the law is enforced they get a shock and blame the people that they are sheep and don’t live a little!

How dare they! If I wanted a dateline rush I will do skydiving but I will not put myself and others in danger of reckless driving. Because truly that action is selfish.

 

Ok, Rant over! Let me know though your thoughts! love to hear them!

Let’s talk about Self-Care

Hello Humans,

let’s talk about self-care. I am no expert here about self-care nor I claim that I found the solution of peace of mind and calm soul. But I have a fair share of trying to find myself, care myself and such.

I have to say it very very very hard to take care of yourself because you sometimes forget what’s important and what’s not! The must’s of everyday life come into focus on the wants.

Fellow humans, I am sorry to say this but the wants are very important; it is the things we want, keep us sane.

So don’t neglect those wants over musts.

For me is an everyday struggle to do things that I want rather than must and sometimes I try to balance my wanting to do things without forcing myself to do them so.

A very jumbled post but here it is, my insight to self-care.

LESSON OF THE DAY: Do something that you want and take a step back from all the musts of your everyday life. Because taking a break or a step back is moving forward.

Till next time,

Stay sane humans.

When Life gives you Lemons!

Hello Humans,

 

it has been a while but I am struggling with stress and personal issues but I thought today I should talk about bad things that happen to us. Otherwise, the lemons that life gives.

I always said when life gives you lemons make lemonade because they are expensive.

I often think that what if my life had me different easier, didn’t take my chances what would happen?

 

I don’t know what would happen but I have an odd feeling that I would be unhappy, I mean right now I am not thrilled with anything just overwhelmed than anything else.  Yes, life has played some tricks on me but taking advantage of those tricks and going with the flow I learned a lot of lessons and met great people along the way!

I think I would prefer to make lemonade than continuously throwing the lemons because of thats just a waste.

Probably didn’t make sense what I just said… If you did understand then welcome to the club 🙂

Doing That thing we wanted

Hello Humans,

Do you remember last week you said to yourself I am going to go for a run today!

But you never went, because I don’t know you couldn’t be bothered to put your shoes on and instead you ate chips!

This was just an example but in many cases, it happens either is a run or to start a blog or whatever we desire.

Why do we sabotage ourselves?

I don’t know for you out there, but I am scared of failure. I always put it I can’t be bothered or I am too busy for this; I have this feeling though that I failed myself because I didn’t do it, obviously, I wanted to go for a run but my stupid brain was nah!

I need to learn to break the habit of just sitting back and doing nothing when I want to do something.

So 2018 I am coming with the determination of breaking the lazy brain habits 🙂

What about you? Would love to hear your experience!

 

 

Glorious Life-Goodbuy 2017 Hello 2018

Hello Humans,

 

I am back!

Will I be here often now that is 2018?

probably not who am I kidding life is getting busy moving forward and sweeping me on the way… I am having a sweet ride… 2017 has been a learning curve for me I got engaged, I learned to stick for myself and in the process, I got an awesome job and comes with an awesome boss and awesome workplace… Rare I know it, I got lucky…

2017 also taught me that taking a break it is ok because taking care of yourself and taking a step back actually saves you from burnouts and failures. Studies mental health and addiction I learned there that maybe is not something I wanna do right now and guess what it is ok!

2017 also gave me confidence and awesome people surrounded me and gave lessons that I will carry with me forever Shout out to me Gallery curator Megan that believes in my art and continues to teach basic stuff and sell my work 🙂 thank you so much…

To my partner that made sure my work was looking perfect and to my friends that stuck with me in difficult times and easy times. To my amazing family that helped me overcome difficulties and believed in me:).

To the new people that joined my life and my gang keeps growing and becoming awesome. I am filled with love and happiness… I know cheesy as hell my goodbye to 2017 it was a difficult year, with learning curves awesome people and happiness; no need to focus on negative it was small very very small.

I hope my 2018 is as great as my 2017 I am going to rock this year not with new years resolutions, but with my new year intentions. Because I intended to rock my world with glitter and the things I want in my life …

I hope your 2018 will be as awesome as I will aim mine to be!

See you next time unpredictable lifers.