Insanity letter to me -insanity?

Hello humans,

Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.

Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.

I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.

Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.

Loss Of Indentity

In some point, everyone lost their identity.

Don’t you think so?

I have, in one point of my life I didn’t know who I was, what I was representing.

I think losing one part of me made me realise to find a new one, a better one. I had a good talk with myself, that’s right I am really interesting to talk to.  Anyway I realised that I was lying to myself for a long time and my identity was formed based what others and society wanted me to do, but now I proudly could say my identity is more formed and I don’t care about the box, circle or triangle that everyone tries to place me.

Myself is important and in order to sustain it I need to do the things are important to me.

The question is WHO ARE YOU?

NO, REALLY WHO ARE YOU?

tell me have you lost your identity? did you find it?

It’s hard to reach to yourself nowadays with so many influences, try to reach and ask WHO AM I?

and tell me.

I am an awkward, uncoordinated, weird person that does things that most people with my qualities would stay at home. I challenge myself every day.

Being an artist

Being an artist is amazing and at the same time sucks!

1.I am not a pessimist on the contrary I am very much motivated to succeed in the art world. I have to admit I envy people that get that first luck, the publicity and then they are off to do more work because there offers or they are known for the first success and it’s easier to get into galleries.

2. Of course you can sell your artwork online, on art markets, and etc, but then the dilemma on how do I price my work because I know how much I want the piece, but people are always like WOW that’s expensive and you are like no its not, took me 3 full days to do one piece.

3. If you want to be an artist that does shows I think you just have to chase and create your own break! Don’t wait for others, rely on yourself.

In conclusion, I am happy to say that I chase my own path; I don’t wait to just happen and if people think that a piece of artwork is expensive that’s ok because there other people that may want to buy it.

here is one of my latest pieces

#DearDepression

Hello, people of the world. Some of you might know that  I am currently studying on the 3rd year of the Applied Arts Degree. I have chosen depression as the subject I will focus on this year. I have been asked many times why I am exploring such a subject. So I am going to tell you: I believe that art has the power to join people together and make the hostile world smaller. So that’s why I am doing this art project. Depression has been one of the leading diseases on the western world. My journey of studying and making art about depression made me realize that I can help people somehow.  This event #deardepression has been created because I believe if we share our struggles with one another it makes a bit brighter, a bit healthier. In this event you are asked to share your experiences, there are many ways to do this. You can write about the experiences you have had. You can write a story, poem or haiku. You can create a drawing or painting. This event is for every single human being. You don’t have to be depressed to write something. if this subject inspires you to ‘write’ about it and share it, then go ahead. This event also about breaking the barrier of depression and making everyone a stepcloser to a healthier self by expressing feelings and becoming closer to the people around you. The way to participate is to use the #deardepression on your post so people can find you. Also post the link to the comments below. If you don’t have a blog you are more than welcome to write your story and send it to me or post it on the comments below– either way I will try to make it visible. If anyone wants to write something on the Facebook page, twitter, or tumblr please feel welcome to, but remember to use the hash-tag and tag me so I can see it.  you can tag me on twitter with @electroudi

Vegan Debatable

I am a vegetarian. Why you may ask?

I am because i was sick of eating meat all the time and everything that I ate involved meat. So one day I decided that I am not going to eat meat and I did it. I set a time limit to my vegetarianism and said 3 months just to get ride of the bad habit of eating meat; nine months later I am considering to be a vegan.

When I became vegetarian everyone was like, but bacon how can you deny yourself that?

Simply, saying no it’s unhealthy.

Now I am like but how do I say no to egg, milk, cheese and other dairy products?

I am pretty good when I make a decision I stick to it, but I don’t think I can be vegan. Not just yet anyway.

I like the idea of being completely healthy, but it’s also hard.

Before you comment it’s not healthy and you are not taking all the vitamins; I will you are wrong I haven’t been healthier than I am today just being vegetarian. I simply learnt that I have to eat some certain food chains with some others to get the benefits and the start working.

So Vegetarians, vegans and proper food eaters what do you think? Should I pull the plug and be vegan or wait for another 6 months just for my body to be accustomed to my lifestyle?

Being Afraid

So before I moved out from Greece I was a person that talked about the future quite a lot and planned to do great things in life, but no one thought that I would accomplish them.

Here I am now in New Zealand accomplishing those things in a short amount of time. Slowly I am making my way on the things that I promised myself back then, but I am so afraid that after I finish my degree I would be lost, my dreams would vanish into thin air and life will take course and I would lose hope on the things I love.

Maybe this is natural to feel like this when you go out in the big world and chase your dreams.

Dreaming is free but chasing them is not. I am prepared for everything and I know that is going to be difficult to have a career or a job in photography, but I will try my hardest to succeed.

I am having cold feet because in my experience there is always something to mess up your plans. I don’t know how to overcome this fear. Every day I can feel my heart beating so fast that I almost feel that is going to pop out of my chest.

Stress you might say and you probably right.  Being Afraid of the future is very stressful, especially with me that I try to accomplish so many things. I am getting there with stress pushing me to my destination.

Tell do you have the same fear? or is just me stressing out on my dreams and hopes?

Well that’s depressing!

Well, that’s depressing. That was my boyfriend words when I told him that I am going to the beach alone. I asked him why and he told me because you going to be alone. “Poor me”, all alone.

“Poor me”, all alone.

It is not depressing, it would be if I stayed home and done nothing. I always stay home on my days off, now that’s depressing. I don’t want to wait for someone to have an epiphany and come with me. I independent person that can do stuff alone. I love me time, I love it so much that I prefer my own company more.

Being in my comfort zone is easy, getting out and do the things you talk about is difficult. I don’t want to be a wannabe artist or wannabe adventurer I just want to do them.

Going after my wants and my dreams are not depressing, even if my dream for my day off is to have a swim in the sea for the first time in this summer.

What do you think?

Is it depressing doing things for yourself? ( even if you have no one to come with you or do it with you?

Bound to be different

My biggest step of leaving my comfort zone and doing something big was moving out of Greece and moving in New Zealand. It was the hardest thing I ever did regarding to my future, and it was two years ago. Since then I chose to re-define myself, which meaning jumping my comfort zone all the time.

So if you get the chance to leap to make a difference, do it, it turns out an amazing trip of discovery and positive outcomes. I am telling you from a personal experience you grow in ways you never imagined.

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Envelope Pushers.”