Insanity letter to me -insanity?

Hello humans,

Since I started writing here and admitting obsessive thoughts and feelings I started feeling a little better than before. That insanity feeling that I had about a month ago is gone.

Talking with my friends and family made me realise that those feelings were normal because it’s not just me feeling the world is going to collapse on top of my head. There are so many people out there that have the anxiety and these strange times.

I would like to say that you are not alone feeling insane all the time and have those feelings. Also, would like to make sure that you know it is ok to feel insane. we are humans and we are entitled to not feeling okay all the time, absolutely normal not to feel happy and cheery there are other feelings that exist not just positive but we have negative we need to accept them as they are because this is what makes assume even if that sometimes represents us as insane.

Please free to share your insane moments with me because we’re always in this together, in these unsettling times and it’s good to stick together all of us insane people.

The road to…

Hi everyone, 

Imagine  your life as a million of paths and strings and every step you make you create new path and you cut one string. Now you don’t know where you going because you are blind, but every step you make you think you making he right decision. 

Isn’t scary to be walking blind? And thinking you are making the right step to your happiness?  

I always think what about the other paths? Or how do I know that the step I am making it’s not predestined and I am just doing it thinking it’s free will. 

I mean there are millions of other parallel universes that I might be dead, rich, or famous. 

All I know I won’t stop trying to live the life I think it’s best for me. Even if it is hard. I will be proud of it in the end of the day. 

When I grow up!

I always say let’s listen to the grown up they might know a little bit about life! 

They response is you are a grown up! 

The answer I give is I am not grown up grown up yet! I haven’t got kids! 

Is this the breaking point of being an actual grown up? Or is one point in your life that you say I need to stop fucking around and I need to do something all grown up do; know what I am supposed to do in life and earn a lot of money? 

Here is the thing though I don’t really care about money. I just want an easy going life that I am able to do things without being judged and being expected that I was meant to do more with my life.

So I choose not to be a grown up! I am 24 and I am aloud to figure things out even if they don’t look good on my CV. 

I am back

I have been away 

Sorry for that

It’s time to fall back

With a loud bang
Ps. Hey guys been traveling around Europe so it’s hard to post thing on the blog, but now that I am coming to the end I will be posting some stuff more often! Brace yourselfs I am back! 

Artist

Another wastful day

  Rhyming for life

Trying to swim 

In the sea of fears

Saying what we feel

Trying  to be alive again 

When you go down!

Hi everybody

Having fun with your lives? 

I do! I had so much fun yesterday that I dance and I drunk 2.5 long Island ice teas. 

 what happened you may ask after I went home?

Well, 

My mother took me home because I was unable to drive and as soon as I lie down the whole room was spinning. 

I did the mistake of drinking a lot of water. What happened after drinking the water ?

I don’t know, maybe I got up to vomit and I threw up slipped on the vomit, crowl to the bathroom to continue vomiting. 

My boyfriend was cleaning and trying to make me stop drinking water.

I say this story because now that I think of it, it’s sad and funny at the same time!! It never happens to me before, but hey there is always a first time😂. 

How not to follow a diet!

Ok this is extremely important!
This is the steps of not following a diet!

1. Wake up, by your mother’s “trying to be quite”

2. Hate the diet you actually doing.

3. Get pissed off because of heat and then eat something that’s on the diet.

4. Get even more pissed of by your mother because she gave another job to do.

5. Do that job while eating two ice creams and because that’s wasn’t enough cry while you driving and realise how misarable you are.

6. Now you realised how misarable you are go and eat a chocolate mouse.

7. To top it of your night eat some french fries for dinner.

8. Next day you pretend never happen and continue with your diet and nod to everyone that says you don’t need to diet.

What Is life?

Life is moments that are mashed all together into memory.

What future?

Have you ever got cross with a spiritual person and told you that coming back wad good and that you never going to leave and break with you current boyfriend and find someone else?

Well it happened to me! It broke my heart because I do believe those things and puts the benefit of the dought in your mind! At the same time tho I need to trust my instincts because I make my freaking destiny not the universe does it for me! Future changes all the time is the paths we take and only us will make it happen .. so thank you future tellers, mediums, numerologist,  spiritual people, but at the moment I don’t want to make plants that will change my life!
I am happy like I am even when the dought come in place I have a cry like a little bitch and I see that I am crying for something I might lose and love. So bye bye negative thoughts. I promise will live my life to maximum and everyday is a new day!

Looking at the past

Hi everyone,

I have been going through my old stuff and packing it away to take it to my new place and I have been going photos, videos and notes to myself. I have noticed that my past is different to what I have become now!

I don’t know if I want to be glad about the changed that happened to me or be afraid.

I was so carefree person, and constantly putting goal to thrive for better, but never succeed so much. Now my goals and my “life plan” is going in the right direction, but I am not carefree. I don’t have fun as much as I used. I am so stuck up my ass that sometimes I am afraid to say my opinion to strangers.

Moving away from Greece made me “grow up” for better or for worse.

Also, after three years battling with a second language, getting a BA in applied arts, working my ass off and succeeding in many other things; It’s time for me to touch base.

IT’s time for me to re-visit my carefree past and say I succeeded in something you couldn’t never do. It’s also time for me to heal from all that anxiety and sadness that process caused me.

My plate is full for now, but I will never stop seeking change. I will never stop seeking a life that makes me truly happy.

Future me, you are a stress freak and an awesome personality and you going to have a Kick-ass life.